Rant

It's been so long since i last blogged....

So now i have been transferred back to hq, things got better? i don't think so...

Just back for a week and i fell sick, it's totally sickening. Of course i want to be back to hq but my body, my lousy weak body, can't get back to its 'previous' status, so i fell sick. And of course there are other things bothering me, so here and there give me stress and in the end i 'gave up' and fell sick.

i also don't know what i'm stressed for... i think to 'get married' is like a burden, i mean to go through all those custom thingy is really a stress to us. To plan and prepare is a stress, to gain agreement from both sides is a stress, indirectly unhappiness 'created' also brings another stress to us.

i think becoz of my wedding i become very emotionally unstable sometimes. In the first place i am already a person who 'thinks too much' , and now i'm more unstable, i even think more and more and become very sensitive. i easily cry these days, very emotional, i always feel that nobody understands me...

Wedding is already a big 'burden' and now at work i also need to face other problems, i really hate it... i'm back to the place and i felt like i need to clean up the mess other has made. It's like i have to 'take over' whatever people have left but it's not something well done that i can just take over easily, it's a mess that i have to take over. If i wasn't transferred, this kind of mess will not happen, becoz i will always control and do my best. Now who is going to clean up the mess, you think that person will do it? Why can't people just be more responsible? You made the mistake and you should correct your mistake.

That's why i said, work so hard for what, no one is going to appreciate it, so all those people are clever, they don't care, they don't work hard, i am only the stupid one...

We went to BNY studio today to collect our photo album and to try out gowns.
When we checked our album we realize there is something wrong with one of the photo so in the end they have to take back the album to amend it. i was a bit disappointed coz i thought they are quite professional and shouldn't make this kind of stupid mistake. Then now we can't have the soft copies, we can't do our video montage. i hope they will finish the amendment soon.

Still waiting....

i am supposed to be transferred back to HQ on the 15th of August but they changed it again! Sigh, i will only be back there on the 20th...... :(

Time really flies but how come sometimes it's like so slow becoz it's not 20th August yet? -_-'''

Recently i'm preparing my wedding guests' list, sent some invitation messages to some friends. i'm quite sad that some of them never even replied my message. i mean, even if you don't wish to come, why can't you just say so? i won't mind if you're not coming but at least you give me some responses. i treat you as a friend but what do you treat me as? If i think you are nothing to me, i wouldn't bother to invite you. If i invite you, that means somehow you are an important friend to me... Sigh, it's very sad la!

i'm thankful that at least some friends did replied to me, really appreciate it :)

Finally the last entry for the Pullip-Tography contest. This round is really tough as the theme is 'Creative Beauty' and we have to find something creative in the country we live. Actually i think my 2nd entry would be better to suit this theme coz Marina Bay Sands hotel is quite creative to me but too bad that i have already used it for that entry. i can't wait to know the result but the contest ends on 15th August, so it's still long way, lol. i'm so eager to know who will be the winner coz the winner will get a NRFB Pullip! But i know it's very hard, my chance is low : ( Nevermind, i will just dream XD